Beads of Joy 01-07-11
Our Cards On The Table
©2011 James Dacey, Jr. SFO
In all fairness in response to many private messages and wall comments. Yes our family is under a tremendous amount of stress, there is no doubt how true that really is for us. I honestly feel like our family is under spiritual attack, even though we have many little miracles to share, overall, our challenges are colossal and massive individually. When I am in distress, it's the human part of me that feels the grip of it all in my life. My faith can withstand death itself, but when family members are suffering its difficult. I won't ever flex or pull away from my belief or faith in my Lord, ever. He is my secret strength, He is my rock. He truly is the only way we as a family have come this far through all these calamities. I thank all of you for your unceasing love and desire to pray for us, as we pray for so many of you. We are spiritual family, thank you Debra McCullar for bringing up that very special point; that is who we all really are. And as a spiritual family, our main focus, our main concern is our spiritual welfare. I am so grateful know so many of you, either in our prayer time, sometimes chat time, or in passing in sharing prayers for one another. God has been so good to us as a community, let us celebrate His love for us, by only further loving Him.
Just to lightly enlighten the depths of things. Our cards on the table, thought. Here is a quick review of the many crosses we are bearing as a family: 1. First and foremost my darling wife Chrissy has a very severe case of lung cancer which was diagnosed in May, since then it has come down 30% in size, but still very massive in size, her emphysema has worsened and she is now suffering a fungal virus that has stopped all cancer treatments. She has 2 aggressive cancer cells in her lung, which the doctor says he fears is growing while the fungal virus is being dealt with, they can't move forward till the virus is gone. 2. Our son Travis (14 y/o) has something going on with his heart, his resting heart rate on average is in the 120's, even from just waking up. There is about eight different kinds of issues that he could have, a stress test is all that is left to then be able to determine what it is he has, he could need a valve, a vein could be collapsed, or medication may fix it, but we (including the doctor) at this point have no idea yet. 3. My insurance at work has changed, we now have a high deductible policy, meaning that the first $10,500, must be paid out of pocket before we can only pay 20% on everything after that. That alone is huge stress.. 4. My work hours and work security is waving in the breeze. 5. Our home is in question due to my dear long time (20+ year friendship) brother in the Lord has passed away. His home belongs to an estate. 6. Our daughter Sarah is undergoing some severe emotional challenges seeing her mom suffer so much, so she isn't around as much as we so need her to be. She is the only other adult in our home to help.
Wow. I am out of breath writing all that and I was typing. Those are just the highlights, there are countless little things spewed throughout each of them. We are blessed with a wonderful bond together, we do love our Lord as a family, we are fighters and we will never retreat. So does that give you a much better, somewhat clearer image of the extent of things? We will be fine, whatever ever God's will in all these things, so be it, we accept that. We of cause want only the best, but we don't fully know all the details of God's plan and purpose in our lives, so we let go of the wheel and allow Him to do His will.
Thank you everyone, you may or may not know how much your prayers, kind comforting words and gifts, notes, cards, everything, has helped us through this far. Your encouragement has made this an easier lighter load for us to carry. Praise Jesus for bringing all of us together top worship, praise and love Him together.
"Jesus, I trust in You."
Your brother in Christ Jesus & His Most Blessed Mother,
Jim (The Rosary Man) Dacey Jr SFO
Today we pray the Sorrowful Mysteries
1. Agony in the Garden
2. The Scourging at the Pillar
3. Crowing with Thorns
4. Carrying of the Cross
5. The Crucifixion of Jesus